This blog is in need of a reboot.
I’ve been writing it for almost ten years now and find myself increasingly facing a writer’s block.
For a couple of years I managed to write something every single day but recently the average number of posts has fallen to around four a month.
I feel better about myself when I do manage to get something down and it’s also useful to look back and gauge my changing moods and interests over the years.
But the devil in my head continues to whisper ‘Why bother?’ and directs my gaze to the steady fall in the number of views in the last few years. Despite having almost a thousand followers, it’s hard to ignore this inner negativity and to shake the feeling that my words simply get sucked into the void of cyberspace.
Still, whenever I have to think about a good personal quality I normally opt for perseverance. I’m not a smooth talker or a particularly fast learner and tend to distrust those who are skilled in these two fields.
What is a handicap in social settings can be an advantage when writing. Blogging fits my character because it gives me time to think before expressing myself even though this also means I too often keep well within my comfort zone.
So the next time the little demonic mind fucker asks ‘Why bother?’ I will reply that writing for the sake of it is a goal in itself and remind myself that looking before leaping doesn’t always save you from falling.
